Grandma

I remember

the long wide stairs to your home,
the hugs that never stopped!
The games of cards,
the light left on for me in the hall.
the times you kept me from harm.
Whenever I needed you,
it was your shoulder I turned to.
your MANSAF your MSAKHAN 
your Royal Breakfast, eggs, jam , butter, cheese,sanyora, Labaneh dahabeel, zaatar w zait, tomato, and Mom's tea    


The last year with us,
your morning voice in the leaving room
your smile 24/7 just made it easy for me 
No complains of your pain.


The hospital care,
you in a wheelchair.
The feeling that you weren't OK,
the days you couldn't come out to play.
the time i learned how to pray for you.

I was told on a morning
that you had forever gone away.
i just lost faith at that time


The funeral hall full of fears,
Mom's eyes full of tears.
Everyone at my house,
there was no shoulder, 
tears fell on my blouse.
The pain I felt,
all of it still I haven't dealt.

I wish I could've said good- bye,
I know you loved me,
why couldn't you stay?
I still miss you to this day.
Grandma - I love you.